Plumbing the depths

I have plumbed the depths
and felt the weight
of fathomless water
and fear

Of mountains
and forests
and neverending
incomprehensible
darkness

Of responsibilities
and ties
that I knotted myself
and cotton wool love

I have been tossed into
the dissolution of
boundless space
panicking to find roots
a string for my kite
love

Today I glimpse
the surface
skimming
free
fluttery
free

How
where
when
why

HOW